It was a Saturday morning. I had spent all week looking forward to this day because Coach would finally be home and he could help me with the kids. Plus I had just been tired and lonely and I was really missing him. We woke up and he broke it to me that he was gonna be gone all day 😥 I just wanted to cry (I did later) and tell him that just wasn’t gonna work for me.
Instead, I nodded yes and started breakfast and laundry and breaking up the kids' fights, cleaned up dog puke, and tried (unsuccessfully) to reason with over tired kids due to the game the night before. I picked up groceries and rocked our babies and never did manage to switch the loads of laundry. 🤷🏼♀️
It’s hard to focus on our goal as a coaching family sometimes.
You know, the goal of making a difference in the lives of kids. The goal of having a positive impact on an entire community. Creating a program that brings a town together every week, so that, at least for one night, everyone would see eye to eye and come together to cheer for their team. Our goal to be a safe place for kids with rough home lives. Our goal to instill the same values and morals into kids as their parents have been trying to instill in them. To set an example of what it means to be an employee, a leader, a married couple, a follower of Jesus. To show kids and staff firsthand what it is to have integrity, by making the right choices again and again even when it seems no one's looking.
This was the point of it all, anyway. So why does it have to be so hard? Why does all of that mean I have to feel so lonely? Why does our best of intentions mean going days without seeing each other, our kids going to bed missing Daddy? Feeling off, on totally different pages when all we want is to be on the same team?
Now you’ve read this far and are looking for me to give you the magical solution, and I’m gonna disappoint you because I have none. I pray, I ask God to be my strength, I accept help from family and friends, and in the midst of it all, I laugh at the craziness of the season. But I’m here to tell you, if you’re feeling the same way at all, you’re not alone. Coach wife life is wonderful in so many ways, but some days it’s just hard, and I think that’s ok. Our feelings don't define us, but our attitude in spite of our feelings changes everything. We can not always like it, but we can press on knowing we're accomplishing a greater good. And we can rest easy knowing we are all in this together. Chin up, girl. I’m with you.